This week’s Listography from Kate Takes 5 is 5 things you’d like to change about yourself, not appearance wise.
1. Patience. Everyone who knows me will you tell you that I’m not a patient person. Its an awful trait that I inherited from my father. I hate waiting for things and especially people. I love to do things, now. Like the weekend we moved into our house I unpacked everything, painted every room, had the carpet redone in the basement, redid the trim of the sliding doors and if it was up to me I would have redone the back splash too. Instead we did that a week later. Its a positive in that I get things done, but usually its a negative.
2. Money Skills. Another terrible trait I inherited from my parents. I don’t think I’ve ever really had a savings. And pretty much since I’ve had a credit card I’ve carried some sort of balance on it. The older I get the bigger that balance seems to be. Its just completely against my nature to save, perhaps because it requires patience.
3. Jealously/Envy. I tend to be a jealous person. I’ve acutely aware of all the things I do not have. And I want to have them. And of course I want to have them now regardless of if I can pay for them. See how all my negative traits interrelate? For example I know that lululemon yoga pants and TOMS shoes are staples of the well to do SAHM. Neither of these things I have. Or can afford. And honestly I don’t particularly like either of them, but I’m still jealous that other people have them. Crazy, right?
4. Insecurity/Fear/Shyness: I feel like these three all go together. Its funny because I was just talking to the Membership Manager about this. I don’t think of myself as an extrovert, but most people do. She said that I can be an extrovert and shy. I think she’s right. I’m shy because I’m insecure and I’m insecure because I’m afraid of people knowing the real me and not abandoning me. I recently read The Snyder Five’s blog post from BlogHer10 and I realized that’s exactly what I think my experience would be if I went. I would feel constantly like I was on the outside looking in. It doesn’t help that I feel like all the bloggers that I read and follow on twitter are the “Big” ones and they likely wouldn’t have the time of day for little old me. That’s where that insecurity comes from I wish that I didn’t have, I wish I could be like this mother fucking anteater:
5. Gossiping: I’m kind of a gossip and I hate that about myself. When I notice that I’m doing it I always stop and feel guilty. I’ve gotten so used to doing it at work all the time because its sort of what we all do to get through the drudgery, but I hate when it sneaks into my personal life. I tend to shoo it away when that happens, but I wish it never did happen.
So tell me, what are your five traits?!
